The grass may not be greener...but...



The grass may not be greener but…

Posted on November 21, 2016 by av9901

I belong on the other side of the fence!

The grass may not be greener...but...

Every single sweat gland on my body was pouring out sweat like I had just stepped out the shower with the Bolivian sun bearing down on me. The puff of my cigarette in the humidity felt heavy and suffocating as I gazed down at the bustling traffic and locals getting on with their everyday lives from my hotel balcony in Santa Cruz de la Sierra. I was dreading the 10 minute walk to the bus stop to take me to the airport but looking forward to getting on that plane…This was 9 months ago.

This of course was my last day, my last hours in Bolivia but more so my last moments of traveling. After 5 and a half years of wondering the world, I sat struggling with my cigarette not thinking or contemplating about my travels or adventures but daydreaming of eating a bacon sandwich from the comfort of my own bedroom while playing on my computer games. Sounds ridiculous right? Yes, I completely agree with you now but at that point I couldn’t wait to get out of Bolivia. Not because I didn’t like the place but because I was over traveling. In fact I had spent the last couple of days not making the most of the end of my trip but just waiting for the days to disappear so I could go home – My traveling bubble had burst and I wanted normality. Bubble burst, reality smacks !

Fast forward a lot of bacon sandwiches, a few blog posts and a lot of complaining about being back home, I want to be back in my bubble, sorry not want – I need to be back in my bubble. If you have been keeping up with my blog, you will know most of my posts have been about me talking about missing traveling and how when I thought I wanted normality in my life, I just can’t do normality.The grass may not be greener...but...

I guess I did need to come home to have that dose of reality to be in a position to miss traveling and the life I’ve been fortunate to live. These past few months, especially the last few weeks since I’ve started working again has made me realize that I need to be out there in the world somewhere; whether that’s traveling, living or working I belong on the other side of the fence.

With another week down at work and the way the screws are turning now, I am getting closer to the other side of that fence. The question isn’t if, it’s when and right now that could be as soon as a couple of weeks. Logically as I’ve mentioned in my last two posts Where to next ? and I’m trying so hard… I should stay and work for 3 months to get the money that I need but my impatience is taking over and wants me to pack and leave next week. Circumstances in my personal life that came to the fore this past week have also played a major part in my impatience growing stronger.

for the rest of this post please read on at the grass may not be greener...but